From Observation to Inquiry

Communities

Kind of vague but I'll try. Sort of macro to micro: I am the member of Earth/humanity as a whole, United States, North Carolina, Currently Watuga spiritually Raleigh, My apartment complex. Those are just sort of the "Geographic" ones.

More "community" oriented, I'm a student, I exist in a couple of discord servers where I regularly interact with others, so those are "communities". I hope one day to be a social worker, which is a community I can't really claim yet. There is of course family and friends. I keep in contact regularly with my parents, and my friends through discord mostly these days. I'm a member of the "Roblox" commmunity, if that one counts. I could list a bunch of niche game communities I'm in as well, but I guess the most "sectioning" one would be that I think gamecube era is the best era of games.

Getting more into "labels" than "communities", I'd consider myself bi (technically gynephilic, but that feels like straight with extra steps sometimes. plus the term makes me feel like some kind of preditor. I do like a very specific subcategory of men though so I think it still counts.) I'm neurodivergant and have found some community there.

Core Values

If I had to state one major guiding principal in my life it's "being better than you were before." There are a number of periods of my life that I'd prefer not to remember, and that have caused measurable harm/discomfort to those around me. In highschool, I was about one bad life choice from becoming an "incel". Towards my college years, and especially after the mysterious stomach issues that came with them, I was raw, unmedicated mood disorder, which often lead to harmful, impulsive descisions, and being irritable and snapping at those I cared about. During these times, I found the guidence I needed to rise above them. Because of this, I don't ever want to have the mindset of "well, I'm good enough now", I want to keep growing, as I believe all people should. That's part of what drew me to social work. If I can provide just one life-altering piece of guidance for one person, I will have considered my career a success. Of course, new guiding principals are bound to pop up as I grow. A respect for the life and freedom of others, helping those who my hands can reach, and putting kindness and warmth at the forefront of my demeanor have certainly cemented themselves. I know you said to leave space for future updates to these sections, but my sense of self is pretty strong these days, so I don't imagine this section in particular changing much.

Curiosities

Just sorta gonna shotgun these. Can anything truely be infinite? If you reached the edge of the universe and kept going, is there actually some sort of bounding force that you would eventually reach? Why does trying to conceptualize how small we are physically on a universal scale cause such great discomfort, almost like negative feedback for have almost having grasped it? I've had it feel like when you're falling asleep sitting up in a chair and suddenly jolt upright when you felt like you were falling, and now any memory of my comprehension of the infinite is gone until my next try. How can there be cruelty in this world? Why do we let it get so much power when levity and music are so euphoric? Why is music so pleasing to the ear if it serves no evolutionary advantage, especially the more discordant/melodic songs? If all life requires is water, and we have examples of microscopic life on even planets close to us, why have we found no evidence of complex life on other planets yet? How can such great thinkers through history hold such vile positions on things that we have evidence in that time period of people knowing they were wrong. Why do we have evidence of Stephen Hawking on Epstien's Island? Why do we have evidence of ANYONE on Epstien's island? Surely they were all not psychopaths, and knew the harm they were doing. Why do we think that things we do don't matter as long as the consequences don't reach us specifically? What exactly is the degree of seperation that numbs the sense of anger at harm to your fellow man. Must you know everyone personally to care about their wellbeing? If there is injustice in front of your eyes, and you see action that may make things worse, but feel morally correct to do and may also improve the situation or light a much needed spark, what is the correct course of action?